jackie says i forgive too much
my father says not enough
but no one’s gonna clasp my face in their hands and tell me i don’t deserve this
i emerge unscathed as always, piss runs clean
i always hate you more when you’re not around

thru the tenderloin again - i want to be with the girls who eat glass and the boys who mistake track marks for fate lines

danced nude in the shower and pretended i was in brooklyn again - cracked my head on the porcelain pavement and all my thoughts of you spilled out - cried so hard i laughed
be the match to set the gasoline in my stomach alight.

i live longer in captivity
so if you love me like you say you do
please don’t ever let me go